Tuesday, February 24, 2009
♥ 11:28 PM
So, I am having one of those moments in my life, again. Yes, you heard correctly, again. It's not because it's another teen thing or whatever, it's just stress packed onto more stress. Maybe I am too young or too immature to know what "stress" really means, but I know for a fact that it's not great. It makes people miserable and worst of all, it'll make you feel like the world is going to end. It sucks feeling this way, but everyone has to go through with it even if they like it or not.
I've been getting too attach to people really easily these days. Maybe it's because of my personality and how much I trust that person. I know trust is a huge thing in this world and for me, I easily trust people. Even if I lost trust in that person, I can still trust them. Lame to say, but it's true. Like for essiance, I recently started trusting this guy that I barely knew and we're just talking about some secrets here and there. When he's not around or not talking to me (like right now) I feel sad and lonely. I mean, I am not in love with the guy or like him in that way, but it's just that I always want someone there to talk with most of the time. Lame, I know but that's how I am. I might even end up like one of his ex that he told me about and how she's so clingy.
It might be the fact that I haven't had that special person in my life yet. Sure I had a few boyfriends, but they didn't last. Maybe I just want a life long best friend or maybe I feel left out since everyone now a days have a someone that they love except me and maybe a few other people. I wish, that I could meet someone that would lift me off of my feet and show me a bigger and better place.
Maybe I do need to get out more and be less anti-social like he said. But I'm not that outgoing and I know that I am not the brightest star out there. I mean, I know that whole saying about friends coming and going, but who would actually be there for me when I need them the most? Most of the time, my friendships are always one sided and it feels like they are using me. Maybe it's the fact that I am too nice and such a push over.
I know this rant isn't really making sense right now because I keep jumping around, so I'll cut to the chase. I, Anniee, need a boyfriend and fast. I know that might sound a bit weird, but it's true. I really need know how it feels to have a boyfriend and not a just some stupid fling that would last a year. I just need a best friend of the opposite sex here with me because I cope better with guys than I do with girls. Weird, I know, but that is what I am used to.
Oh, and btw if you haven't noticed yet, yes I got myself a new mood theme. It's Tablo from Epik High this time. I might go back and use my Big Bang ones, but as for now I am using this one because I like it more and plus it's more complete. Of course, I did not make these mood themes, someone else did and I am just using it because I love Tablo as much as I adore Big Bang.
But on the brighter note; it is International Pancake Day. I got myself three free buttermilk pancakes with a side of scrambled eggs. I went with three other friends too, because they couldn't turn down free food and who can turn down IHOP? I know, I sure can't.
Current mood: 
Sad
Sad Come back again soon. (: