Tuesday, February 24, 2009
♥ 11:28 PM
So, I am having one of those moments in my life, again. Yes, you heard correctly, again. It's not because it's another teen thing or whatever, it's just stress packed onto more stress. Maybe I am too young or too immature to know what "stress" really means, but I know for a fact that it's not great. It makes people miserable and worst of all, it'll make you feel like the world is going to end. It sucks feeling this way, but everyone has to go through with it even if they like it or not.
I've been getting too attach to people really easily these days. Maybe it's because of my personality and how much I trust that person. I know trust is a huge thing in this world and for me, I easily trust people. Even if I lost trust in that person, I can still trust them. Lame to say, but it's true. Like for essiance, I recently started trusting this guy that I barely knew and we're just talking about some secrets here and there. When he's not around or not talking to me (like right now) I feel sad and lonely. I mean, I am not in love with the guy or like him in that way, but it's just that I always want someone there to talk with most of the time. Lame, I know but that's how I am. I might even end up like one of his ex that he told me about and how she's so clingy.
It might be the fact that I haven't had that special person in my life yet. Sure I had a few boyfriends, but they didn't last. Maybe I just want a life long best friend or maybe I feel left out since everyone now a days have a someone that they love except me and maybe a few other people. I wish, that I could meet someone that would lift me off of my feet and show me a bigger and better place.
Maybe I do need to get out more and be less anti-social like he said. But I'm not that outgoing and I know that I am not the brightest star out there. I mean, I know that whole saying about friends coming and going, but who would actually be there for me when I need them the most? Most of the time, my friendships are always one sided and it feels like they are using me. Maybe it's the fact that I am too nice and such a push over.
I know this rant isn't really making sense right now because I keep jumping around, so I'll cut to the chase. I, Anniee, need a boyfriend and fast. I know that might sound a bit weird, but it's true. I really need know how it feels to have a boyfriend and not a just some stupid fling that would last a year. I just need a best friend of the opposite sex here with me because I cope better with guys than I do with girls. Weird, I know, but that is what I am used to.
Oh, and btw if you haven't noticed yet, yes I got myself a new mood theme. It's Tablo from Epik High this time. I might go back and use my Big Bang ones, but as for now I am using this one because I like it more and plus it's more complete. Of course, I did not make these mood themes, someone else did and I am just using it because I love Tablo as much as I adore Big Bang.
But on the brighter note; it is International Pancake Day. I got myself three free buttermilk pancakes with a side of scrambled eggs. I went with three other friends too, because they couldn't turn down free food and who can turn down IHOP? I know, I sure can't.
Current mood: 
Sad
Sad Come back again soon. (:
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
haircut ♥ 2:25 PM
So, how was everyone's Valentine's Day? (: I heard a lot of people called in on this on radio show saying that theirs suck. How depressing, right? I mean, I don't like Valentine's Day either, but at least I got to spend it with my family. (: That's all the love I need.
This past week or so, it has been raining nonstop. -__- It rains really hard one minute and the next it dies down to sprinkles. Like yesterday when I went with my friends to drop off my other friend in Davis, it rained randomly at different checkpoints. People were going about 75 - 85mph too! D: I was busy listening to my friend's iPod to really notice how fast my friend was driving, but I know it was a tad bit slower.
Also, yesterday I got my haircut. (: I finally got to cut my hair the way I wanted to without my mom nagging at me to get the typical Asian hairstyle where you just cut it straight across. -__- I've had that hairstyle for about 10+ years of my life and it was annoying. Now, I love my hairstyle because it's different and feels much more lighter and softer. (: I even took a before and after picture to show you guys, lol.
Picture: http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3394/3288140051_eeb7e26f33_o.png
Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3K2wLQjQAA8
Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3K2wLQjQAA8
Oh yes, I even made a video too, lol. Well, I made it because my friend told me to and I haven't updated my youtube in a long time, so I just did it anyways. Now, I am looking through youtube to see which ways I can style my hair. I don't wanna use that much wax, gel and hairspray, so I might make up my own way to style my hair, haha. I'm not sure yet because it's still raining and if I style my hair, the rain will kill it. -__- I normally like rain too, but after my recent trips to VietNam, I began getting annoyed of it. But in a way, I still like it because it makes everything more peaceful and calm.
Current mood: 
Enthralled
Enthralled Come back again soon. (:
Friday, February 6, 2009
new look ♥ 11:53 PM
So, how do you guys like my new layout? :D It took me a while to figure out what I wanted to do with the pictures I had and as you can tell, I need to update the pictures of them. Haha, I only have pictures of them from before their album, Always came out. XD I really need to add more pictures of them onto my computer, but it's already running kind of slow because I have all of their songs. But anyways, I hope you like the new layout because I won't be updating the layout until whenever, haha. Get it? But I will be trying to photoshop some random pictures here and there for my flickr {http://www.flickr.com/photos/stupidfob/}, since I barely made one today. There's only about 10 pictures in there, for now.
But I'm happy that it's already Febuary! I can't wait until the end of May for two reasons. Reason one; school ends for me or for at least a week, then I have summer classes. Reason two is I get to become a nerd and go to the anime convention that I always go to every year. If you're wondering, yes it's that convention that I always tend to mention at least four or five times a year in every single of my blogs. I bet that you'll get tried of me spazzing about it, huh? Well, too bad because the sooner it comes, the more spazzy I get. XD Talk about tough love, right?
So lately, I've been following a friend that I've known since freshmen year in high school to his work place, area or whatever and the people that he works with are very nice and outgoing. I mean, I thought that I was the only cheerful one in the bunch I hang out with on a daily bases, but boy was I wrong. There are more bubbly and happy people at the place that my friend worked at that I even decided to join in the fun. So, tomorrow I have to wake up at around 7am to get ready and wear business like clothes, then drive with my friend all the way to Hayward. Which is about 20 minutes away from from where the city that I live in, I think and it's already late, so I need to get some rest.
Current mood: 
Energetic
Energetic Come back again soon. (: